We fret at the inevitable realization that our existence is limited. We would rather things were different. . . . And because we know that we cannot change things, that we cannot cease to move remorselessly towards this place, we look frantically around for assurances on this side of the moment when they will all be stripped away, anxiously busying ourselves to snatch at life before we die…
All evil beings with the fact that we will not thankfully accept the limitation of our existence where we should hope in the light of it, and be certain, joyously certain, of the fulfillment of our life in the expectation of its’ end. The root of all evil is simply, and powerfully, our human care. We must begin, as before, by asserting its emptiness. It is quite futile. Why? because of the inexorable nature of the destiny, the natural order, in virtue of which we and all things are corruptible and will perish?
It is futile because our perishing, the terminating of our existence, which we think we should oppose without anxious striving, is the good order of God, one of the tokens of His gracious and merciful and invincible will as Creator. We do not choose something better but something worse, a definite evil, our own rejection and compact with chaos, if we oppose this order when we ought thankfully and joyfully accept it. Chaos is what God did not will, and will never do so…
This invasion and destruction of the object of all care (even in its form as destiny and the natural order) has taken place and cannot affect the force and validity of the veto which He has laid upon it, not only by His words, but by the act of His life as He sacrificed and fulfilled it on the cross.
We act as though the work and Word of God were nothing; as though Jesus were not risen. We make no use of the freedom which we are granted in Him…The life of man becomes an unbroken chain of movements dictated by his anxious desire for assurances…in relation to possibilites whichhe desires because he expects from them fulfillments which for a time at least conceal his certain end, allowing him temporarily to forget that which is before him. Care is the remarkable alternation and mixture of this fear and desire against the background of what we think we must regard as a threat rather than our hope. From this angle, the disobedience and unbelief and ungratitude of man consist in this tragic persistence in this opinion, and the evil will which permits it. This opinion is the inexhaustible source of care, both as fear and desire, in all its great and little, all its more or less exciting or apparently only incidental and superficial forms. On the basis of this opinion man is always one who is anxious in some way, although he is the one who ought to be without care, the one from whom all care is removed at the very point where he thinks that he is threatened, at his issue and end which is his appointed future. Because his care has its basis in this opinion, however, it cannot be overcome by a frontal attack. No other man, not even an angel from heaven, can successfully summon me–and I certanily cannot summon myself–to abandon these fears and desires and therefore to be be anxious.
If we ever take the risk (and it is a risk) of preaching on Mt.
625-34, we at once meet with all kinhds of sullen or dispirited or unwilling reprimands (expressed or unexpressed), and most of all, if we are honest, from our own hearts and minds. For how can we help taking care for our life? How can we model ourselves on the fowls of the air and the lilies of the field? How can we seek first The Kingdom of God and His righteousness in the assurance that food and drink and the clothes will be added to us? How can we leave the morrow and its anxieties–the storm which may mount and break, or the sun which may shine through–and confine ourselves to the troubles (and perhaps the joys) of to-day? How is all this possible?
How can man let go his care when he is of this opinion? We may remove all the things that he fears, or give him all that he desires, but new fears and desires will rise up at once from the inexhaustible source of this opinion and new cares will be his portion. For one day he will inevitably reach his end. If he has no positive joy and comfort, but only anxiety, in relation to this fatal point, if in his approach to this point, this far side of all his fears and desires, he does not see Godd but nothingness awaiting him, He can only be filled with care. He is a prisoner of the ceaseless movements of care which he himself has to make and has automatically made. We have to see this if we are to realise the power of man’s sloth; his culpable negligence, even in this respect; a power which is very real even though the opinion in which this negligence originally consists, and the whole tormented existence to which it gives rise, are quite pointless and therefore empty and futile. Just as inexplicably but in fact man is first a practical atheist, inhuman and a vagabond, and then can only think and speak and act accordingly, so first–how shall we describe him from this final standpoint?–he is the dissatisfied man who necessarily becomes his own slave, and lives in the bondage of his need of security. We have to grasp this if we are to be more than indolently surprised at the sea of individual and racial care in which we are all almost submerged…The distinctive feature of care is that it derives its power from its opponent, from that which causes it and agaisnt which man tries to secure himself…
He turns to his own grief, constituting it a gracelss determination of his existence, that which is full of grace but which he fears as his distant end, the coming of which he tries to avoid, and from which he tries to conceal himself in all kinds of fulfilments. And he is now marked by this phantasy which he has conjured up. He falls victim to it in the present in which he is concerned to seure his future. From this standpoint, too, he is engaged in that frantic hunt in which he himself is really the hunted. This is the curious power of of care. It is only pseudo-creative. But all the same it is a real power even in its impotence. And there can be no escaping its effectiveness. For as man conceives and nourishes that view of his end, the end as he views and empowers it necessarily thrusts itself into his present. We must also mention the fact that it, too, has great powers of expansion and infection. We push one another into these anzious fears and desires and the corresponding joyless present.